是与非

一个人，
无论你是属于乖乖型，抑或是坏坏型。
你的身边总会有是非的出现。

每一个人都有一张嘴巴。
可能他们所说的，你们感到不悦。
可能他们所说的，都不是真实的。
但是，你必须要接受这一切。

太多的流言蜚语，
可能让你感到难受。
但是试图想想，
若你真的为你的是非而和别人吵架的话。
那么你被说是非程度不就是更高了么？

有时候，
别人喜欢说什么，
就任凭他们说了吧。
我们并不能阻止这一切的发生。
因为我们不是圣人，我们都有犯错的可能。

不要因为别人的投诉而改变自己。
我们是自己的，我们爱怎样选择都属于自己。
何必在意别人的想法？
如果因为别人改变自己的所有，
那么真实的自己都会跟随回忆远走高飞。

学会接受，别人的批评。
学会沉默，静静的聆听。
学会宽恕，别人的放肆。
学会放下，别人的过失。
学会承受，痛苦的感受。

如果，我们学会了这一切，
那么，就代表我们真的长大了。
是是非非，
其实都总会有雨过天晴的一天。

到最后，还是一个人

我微笑着，
静静的看着世界上的每一个人。
看到身边的所有人，都会有一个伴儿陪伴着。
而我，却只能是默默的一个人。

我不是没有朋友，不是没有兄弟姐妹，
更不是没有恋人
只是我不敢再相信这些感情。

什么朋友，
到最后只是一个陌生的回答。
什么兄弟姐妹，
到最后也只是一个空。
什么恋人，
到最后也会各奔东西。

浑浑噩噩的度过一生，
看到的竟是姐妹的欺骗，
朋友的出卖，恋人的背叛。

如果能重来，我会选择收藏好奇心。
默默责怪自己的怀疑，
和信任你们所谓的真心话。

其实我真的累了，
我并不想再摸索以后的路。
我只想停顿在快乐的时间，
难道的难度很高么？

其实我很痛苦，
但只能伪装自己继续走下去。
什么安慰的话，
对于此刻的我来说，
一切都只是哄骗的话。

我们人类，
开始的时候是一个人来到这个世界。
死去，
也只能一个人默默的离开世界。

我每时每刻都在问自己，
选择认识身边的人，
是好，还是坏处。
但是，
始终还是没有个答案。

可能认识身边的人，
是上天赐予的缘分。
仍然，
目的是想让我们受尽折磨，把世界看透。

其实，
世界并不是我们儿时想的一样，
拥有蔚蓝的天空，自由的鸟儿，和美丽的大自然。
他们背后，
都一同拥有一片黑色的色彩。
是吧？

很多时候，不愿一个人

有时候，
明明身边有着很多朋友的陪伴。
但是，心，依然还是会感到孤单的存在。

有时候，
心情莫名的不好，
想哭又不是，想笑也不是。
唯一能做的，只是一度的沉默。

难过的时候，
想找良朋好友倾诉，
才发现，自己原来身边是没有朋友可以倾诉的。
即使大家曾经是多么的熟悉。

有时候，
微笑着告诉别人说，
我很快乐，生活过得很好。
但是当一个人的时候，脸上的笑容却垮了下来。
突然觉得很累很累。
埋怨的说，明天的生活还会是如此一样么？

有时候，
真的什么都不想说。
只是想静静的观赏寂寞。
聆听贴心的歌曲。
盼望歌曲可以治疗伤害。

原来，漆黑的夜晚。
可以给予更多的悲伤。
好想，永远都逗留在孩子气的时期。
做一个没有烦恼的孩子。
可惜，这个永远都只能是大家心中的一个渴望。

原来有时候，
沉默比任何语言来得更贴切。
不想说的，就让它随风飘散。
突然给予的冷漠，只是我来不及给这个世界做任何反应。

其实，
我真的很累了。
很多时候，一个人承担，一个人背着的伤痛。
很想统统都放下。
但是却无能为力。
前方的路途，有多遥远，我也一概不懂。
我只是希望，在我未来的路上。
仍然可以继续有欢笑可以陪伴我。

我不贪心，
但愿有家人的疼爱。
朋友的体谅，关心，
和，有你的爱。
那，就可以了。

Time Past So FaSt~~

Really can't expected that the time has past so fast,

Because the last update for my blog is at March.

Might be i seldom go check the blog already,

by the way,

this month is my second month of my working life.

In the first month,

I got many spirit to work overtime and work faster.

After end of the peak period for submission of sole proprietor and partnership,

and i now started to be demotivated to work overtime.

Really don't know where's my spirit been?
I think might be friend relationship affected me.

Causing me mood down.

The one that i must telling myself the reality of the world is very cruel.

I must not NAIVE.

Im So UseLess

International Finance Mid term Marks has released,
when i checked for my marks,
and i was the lowest one in the class.
I was totally down right now..
Could I graduate on time?
or Just extend for one more semester again?
Im lost!
Totally lost..What can i do right now?
SAD

Have A NiCe pHoTo ShooTinG

well,just now i tried to call my best friend Tze Ni going out have a shooting.
She said 'ok'. It's very satisfied answer for me.
Hehe.
That time i was keep on calling to Kit but no one answering the phone.
I start feeling like shit,
Keep on reaching his information where has he been?
Who kNow he was sleeping on that time,
even 6 called also can't wake him up.
Damn FuNny.
but now i don't know the shooting is pretty or not..
have to edit a bit because i used my N86 for this shoot.
i will upload to FB sooner..^^

Counting ^^

Still left 9 hours left.

Tomorrow will go KL have try of Jogoya.

Nice or not nice tomorrow will know already.

hehe.

but i haven't withdrawn money yet.

RM30 enough for KL?

hehe..

New Hair Style New Look

just go to 'eye on hair' have a hair cut,
and there also got promotion,
so i go cut and dye my hair.
first of all i just wish to cut a normal hair style.
but the hair stylish suggest me try a new hair style.
don't know what happen on me.
i straight answered 'ok'.
after finished,
i very regret at all!!
you know WHY?
first,my head shape too big enough,
second,im not suit with that new style,
third,it let me feel so ugly on me.
CONCLUSION,next time i should not try the other hair style already!

Finally~

my all mid-term test finally all finished alr.
but just now have a hoping that i can join the travel go to taiwan.
unfortunately the flight ticket has reach to extremely expensive prices.
the price almost reach S$900.
convert to MYR almost RM2k.
then final decision is didn't go already.
what can i do is stay at this idiot country.
when i gonna leave this country?

Run Out of Time~~

i should concentrate in studies that i have 2 tests on the coming saturday,
but my head keep on headache,
the bed keep on asking me go for sleep.
how do i to control all those things?
i ran out of time.
but i still don't have such motivation to pushing me!
what im gonna to do?
this is my last semester already!
i should graduate on time and let my parent be proud.
but i keep on run away from the realistic.
haih..
i already no cure at all..sigh~~

2nd day in the school

already 2nd day for the study,

but i still totally cannot absorb what the lecturer and the tutor teach,

is it my brain still fresh for this new semester?!

or my mood still haven't turn it back to study mood yet?!

gosh~

i should change it asap,

otherwise i'll left very far from behind,

even this week just a 1st week,

it's time to change already!!!

hOw?!

very confusing now!!
next weekend is coming soon...
that day also coming soon...
death or live does not decided by me,
but is from the King of Terrors..
i should not so fast to decided which part i will be...
but i know i cant so fast to give up...
i should fight for it...
if not my life will be wasted...

yEaH~

woohoo...
finally clear 4 subjects already...
now the mood damn relax than before [never stress before also]...=.='''
haha...
tell the truth la..
don't know why this time faced the exam really no such stress like before...
i don't know why this should be good or not?!
no stress then would make me no such mood to study...
haiz...
now i still left 2 subjects which is taxation and the audit practice...
this two subjects also don't know how to die for it...
cause audit i totally skip all the class...
and the taxation damn confusing...
today just rest for a while first then tomorow will boost my engine again lu...^^
hope this 2 coming paper can 'guai guai dei' let me score B ba...
cause my both A already fly away already...T_T

Arghhhhh~~~~~~

Where's my mood going?
Why i don't have such mood to study?
Next week commence will be my final exam,
and i still got a lot have to read it..
many calculation haven't know to find the answer yet!
Today my throat start not feeling well...
did i would fall in sick during in the exam?
gosh!
better don't!
i must find back my spirit come back..
otherwise i sure lose for this time battle...
aza aza...fight fight fighting~~~
go have a nice nap first...^^

I Coming [Clash of The Titan]

yes~

today evening maybe i would go for this movie lo...^^

but now still don't know my friend has bought the movie ticket already or not.

cause you all also know la...

Ipoh cinema got limit...

the ticket always sold out...

haiz...

hope tomorrow i could get the good news from my friend that is the ticket already bought...

if not~~

disappointed again lu..

haha...

[be happy] ^.^v

Lonely weekend..

damn boring on this weekend,
i should go back hometown la..
cause she already go back hers home already,
so this week i just can eat with my friend only,
just finished all the test,
now got a bit feel lazy to open the book la..
everyday keep online and online,
find someone chat on msn but let them "geik sei" la,
always make me speechless,
faint lo...
really nothing can let me do already?!
oh dear,
please faster come back...
so boring at here...

So Innocent

Hey!!!

please give me some break!!!

i'm just in her car a while only...

doesn't mean i want sit her car la...

like that also can create a rumour said i want sit her car...

...lol...

i too scared to you all already...

what i done also can create a rumour...

you all is it nothing to do already?

so much time then go think about yourself is it you already is a perfect person before judge other people!

i'm too scared to you all already...

my dear friend asked me WHY i so care about this kind of rumours?

i replied said "because of this rumours can make more misunderstanding",

cause we doesn't known what they would think about it!

sometimes i'm thinking is it i should be happy to have this kind of friend?

i'm very curious about it...

because everytime i get backstep by you all...

is it very fun for you all?

if i done same thing on you did you will feel better?or very enjoy?

it NOT FUN at ALL!!!

i already try my best don't investigate more deeper...

cause it will break our friendship...

anyway,what you have done i would known..

i kept silent doesn't meant i don't know!!!

i just give you the chance only...

i knew who done this tomfoolery!!!

Lose And Lost [LL]

i'm totally lost and lose to both of you,
your act and your style totally same with each other,
and it's also totally changed from last week,
what the hell you both want it?!
if both of you want be couple then go ahead...
please don't at here torturing me...
make me feel like such a fool by playing around by you both...
i'm already prepared to heard the good news from you both,
by then,
please be normal back...
cause i'm hate what you both are doing now...
just think for you own good??
then how about your friend???
let them suffer??

the another last day of weekend...

today i supposed take out the notes came out and study it...

but i didn't do it...

because after having my lunch straight go back play poker for few hours...

first time play competition of me,

almost have little bit heart attack...

when gonna lose that time i straight all in for few match...

for the return i win back all the money and get the second place...

wow...

first time won...

damn happy...

if really happen on my real life izit that would be more better??

haha...

i damn greedy lo...

anyways,

now i gonna go have my bath and go have dinner with my friend...

after that want complete our taxation assignment for tomorow submit...

~bye~

Insomnia again...

what thing was cause me insomnia again..

hate the feeling being play like a fool...

i felt im the superb idiot in this world la...

when im serious on that time but you all were play joke with me...

felt like a FOOL!!!

Ky, you are right...

everything has it own limit,

so i must controlled it,

IF not terrible thing will gonna happen...

i should not let it come back again,

i know i could penetrate on many things based on my experience,

but i should not be do like that,

cause it will make me more hurt...

temper...extremely temper NOW...

im a liar...

no one will trust on me...

nice...

so you all continue believe what you heard!!!

if you all don't trust me then better don't asked me!!!

My heart break again after knowing you all said 'i rather trust them than you'...

my breathe delayed again~~~

my tears won't come out because my eyes extremely dry...

PAIN+HEART BREAK+SUFFER

better let me die than get through all this thing!!!